At moments, I've wondered why I kept giving my heart and soul, time and energy to certain situations with nothing in return. The Lord graciously spoke to me while I was in the "depths of despair". I keep reading this over and over. "But this I say, He who sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and he who sows bountifully will also reap bountifully. So let each one give as he purposes in his heart, not grudgingly or of necessity; for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to make all grace abound toward you, that you, always having all sufficiency in all things, have an abundance for every good work....Now may He who supplies seed to the sower, and bread for food, supply and multiply the seed you have sown and increase the fruits of your righteousness." 2 Corinthians 9:6-10.
We always think of this scripture in terms of tithing. But, it says so much more. I realized that I was not joyfully serving God. It seemed like I was doing so much grudgingly and getting nothing in return. But, is that what God wants? Why can't I just give my heart, love, work, prayers, and kindness without expecting something in return? Why do I always put a stipulation on my giving? God says He will multiply the seeds I have sown and increase the fruits of my righteousness. Him. Not me. Not the person I am praying for. Not the person I am helping out or kind to. Him. It may seem like something so little to you, but it is a huge eye opener to me. I wanted recognition from individuals for my deeds and prayers. I wanted a response; results. I made it all about me; but it isn't about me at all.
Now onto other things. I love having a son at home. He can do the dirty jobs; like pump my gas, take out the trash.
But, for some reason, I have to get Ivy to kill the spiders that Jack runs from. Pshhh.
The girls have been enjoying all the falling leaves. It's been pleasantly nice in the 50-60's. Yesterday was warm; around 80.
This year, I tried out a new curriculum in Math. I am not a fan of rote memorization without understanding the numbers themselves. That is why I loved Singapore Math. I used that with Ivy when she first came home. This curriculum is very similar in the fact that you calculate through grouping, but it is less expensive.
It started out a bit overwhelming, but I got it all figured out. It is a lot of mental math and it is amazing to see the girls grasping this new concept of math. They can actually add horizontally! I am enjoying our math time so much more now. Just me, my girls, and my dry erase board. We have fun and I love seeing great things going on in their minds.
I got some new pictures of my son and (gulp) daughter-in-law. Our sweet friend, Leanna, took them. I cannot take credit for the photos.
And, Jack and I are anticipating a little trip soon. I can't wait! I'm counting down the days until I see my daughter!