Today, a friend shared with me that she is 16 weeks pregnant! My first thought was, "Congratulations!" I knew that she had a miscarriage earlier this year, and I was so happy for her and her family. Then, suddenly, a little twinge of sadness came over me.
Don't misunderstand. I'm perfectly, wonderfully content with my clan. But, for the first time in quite a while, I actually felt a loss. A loss that my body will never experience the growth of life again. A loss that I'll never nourish another child from this aging body. I don't particularly want to be pregnant again, especially at my age, or even have another baby in the house. Maybe the reality that my kids are growing up caused this passing sadness. Maybe it is just a reminder of the children I've lost over the years: Ashton, Grace, Ben, and Rachel. Maybe I'll always feel this way until my life is over.
But, soon chaos will ensue our lives once again. The sadness will fade into the background until another reminder comes my way. Life is good. It is such a precious gift from God.
Welcome to my family blog. I have been married to Mike for over half of my life. I love my Savior, Jesus. I am a stay-at-home, homeschooling mom to six terrific, interesting children. My 3 oldest were born to me in my younger years, while my 3 youngest were given to me by God in my older years. I am very blessed. ~Cheri